I feel mildly better. Tomorrow should be fun though. Baby shower for Kayla, then working on a paper, and possibly math, etc. Hopefully it's nice out so i can lay out and get tan

And...cue depression......and holy crap my eyes are watering up because they like sting right now and it probably looks like im about to cry but trust me I'm not. I'm just sad.

Will It Always Be This Way

Sigh....how I'm feeling at the moment. This can just be frustrating sometimes. Especially when...well....sigh. Never mind. I've said i before and don't feel like repeating myself once more. Mildly unhappy

Jibber Jabber

Thank you for talking to me. Thank you for just letting me babble on about my problems. Thank you for always being honest with me. You are one of the few that has always been like that and I love it. It makes me happy that you are understanding and help me and make things better. I love that about you. That and you cuddle me when I'm upset which makes me feel better and safe. I love you and i trust you. I'm sorry i have some issues here and there with myself and letting me talk about them was really nice. I tend to worry and think things and that was what i was doing. You answered my question honestly and i feel  better because i know you are honest with me. I feel better now and it's all thanks to you.

Fright

I hope i didn't scare you away. I opened my mouth, and sometimes things like that come out. I'm emotional right now and i don't know why. I'm mostly scared. Really really scared.

Would still love to be able to move out. The screaming here is getting hard to stand.

Finally The Hell Is Over

Oh my god everyone is pregnant. Like seriously. I was just on facebook and saw yet another person i graduated that is pregnant. Oh society you have gotten mildly ridiculous.

On another note. I have decided to drop the class.....or in this case withdraw from it because I'm past the point of dropping but nothing should affect my GPA. There will just be a big fat W on my transcript. But....i do feel bad that we payed for the class and now I'm not finishing it. But i just can't deal with being up late every night in tears because I don't understand what the fuck I'm doing. I emailed him and said i was upset and that i wanted to meet. He said he did respond to my email and that i need to start giving him more information and usually he doesn't check his emails on Saturday and Sunday. I'm to the point of done. I wanted to say to him that the questions i was asking did not need any info to be given. I asked him if a certain equation was the proper one to use when finding the order of the Fe an I. WHY THE HELL DO I NEED TO SHOW WORK FOR A QUESTION LIKE THAT????? I asked him to please email me back as soon as possible because i need to know if that was the correct thing to use for that. Did he do that....nope. Yet i need to send him my work to ask if I'm using the right equation. WTF. So I'm getting up early tomorrow and going to see the counselor and the people that do the scholarships because i need to talk to both of them. And I'll be done with the hell I'm in. I'LL BE DONE. And I'll be a lot happier and not as stressed and oh just so many things. Sigh, I have to do this. It's the only option that will help me in the long run.