Frustrating!!

This is rather frustrating. I keep telling myself that at some point in life I'm going to have to live with these memories and I'm going to have to accept them for what they are and get over them. Its the part of letting them into the open hats freaking me out. Every time i try and am like OK i can do this, just let them threw and once they run their course they wont be as scary and hurt so much and they will be almost gone...but then every time i go to let them run their course, i freak out and keep them in the vault that they are in. I'm not really sure if ill ever be able to live with them if they aren't inside the vault. So as i said, rather frustrating.