WHYYYYYY!?!?!?!?

God fucking dammit, why does this always seem to happen to me. WHY??? So my dad took out a loan thing from his 401k to apparently buy me a car. Thing is, he never told my mom about it, she just learned about it and doesn't know that i know about it. Her and my dad were having a huge argument earlier today about it, my mom no longer trusts my dad, and she told him he can do all the bills now if hes going to do stuff like that. She doesn't know that i know about it and wont tell anyone what the problem is and all shes saying is that my dad did something with the finances and that she doesn't know if there are consequences with it and shes just balling non stop. Why the fuck do i always have to be in the middle of this crap even when i never even did anything. I feel like total shit because i know whats wrong, and i have mixed feelings about it, but its in a sense my fault. That and i hate these things happening because then my mom gets in a horrible mood and my sister has been terrible lately then all they do is scream and yell at each other. I want to just kinda fall off the face of the earth for a little bit, get away from everything and everyone...well, except for a few people....and just relax and not feel terrible about anything. I just want my back pain to go away as well because its stating to hurt so bad, right now its almost unbearable. My feet hurt too from working a long time today. I just, i wish i didn't have to deal with things like this.