I Graduated!

I did it! I graduated! Finally. I have been through soooo much throughout my school career. So much, so many things that i never deserved, so many pointless things at times. But then, they were the best years of my life. I learned to be outgoing, to make friends just like that, I learned so much. So much. Ill never forget a thing. Ill never forget the fun times i had at all the different dances and theater related events. Coffee House, POPs, Allegros, Players, Dance Performances, Fundraisers, Fiddlers, Tree, Orchestra, Festival...all of them. They all have memories, good and bad, but all worth it. Some memories i hate that i have, but i would never trade them for anything else because of what i learned from them. I learned what true friends are and what they should do, I learned that there are psychotic people, I learned how i don't want to be treated, and i learned how to handle anything and everything. I learned how to stay strong, be strong. I learned how to study, how to not procrastinate. I learned that when i put my mind to something, i can do anything. When I'm determined, things happen. I now know so much more about myself then i ever did before. And i thank everyone who helped me to learn this.
There are things i will miss so much though. As i was putting together my picture board for my open house i think things started to hit me. I saw all the pics of me and my friends hanging out and having a great time. We will all be moving away from each other soon...and these times will not be able to repeat themselves. Our hangout times are getting cut short. I will miss everyone when they are gone. And i will NEVER forget any of them. They made my life a better place, a better thing. I am so sorry that i blew them off freshman and sophomore year for someone who turned out to be the biggest ass of my life, I am so sorry for that. I missed out on things that i can never get back form that, but i hope that my junior and senior year could make up for lost time. I appreciate you guys more than i think you all know, in many cases you guys saved me. We've been friends since 5th grade, and we have added to the group since. We added Jaclyn, Claire, and Kat in middle school. Then we lost Erinn come high school, but we gained Wiewiora, Zobl, Craig, Wilkie, and so many others. It honestly hurts when i think about being away from all of you, I'm gonna miss you. One last hora is what we need, the big bang to the end of a chapter. We'll find a way to stick together, i know we will, but it will be hard, it will be.
There is also the reality of theater. I'm going to miss all of you people to! You've been a major part in my life and i have met so many people and have made new friends through you. It was here that my shyness went away and i really became me. This place has my blood sweat and tears, literally. It is a home away from home. I know ill see you guys often and what not, but not like i used to. Tyler, you became a great friend and I'm gonna miss your silly face. Mike, your like a dad, all i can say is that I'm so sad about leaving you and everyone else. Theater is what made me and broke me. It is here that all hell broke loose and where some of the psycho people came from. But it all was a learning experience and it is other experience that will get me through life greatly. All was well worth it. And i will miss doing shows like i used to like crazy.
Then there was an emotion that i found strange, but as it hit me today it made sense. It was a sense of closure. Not like the stuff you need after a break up closure. But it was closure in the sense that there are people i will never have to see again as long as i live. Thank god. The people who are dating people i hate i no longer will see at lunch and in the hallways. The people who made my life hell in the theater or just in general i never have to see again, ever. That lifted my spirits a bit because with seeing those people comes mean emotions and thoughts about them or the people they are associated with. Basically, with me graduated, i never have to think of there sorry faces again. Ever. Nothing will be there to remind me of them. I wont have those thoughts or emotions anymore. The only people ill be seeing are my friends, like legit friends, family, and Deric. All of these people bring on good things, and even Amelia, who brings memories as well...mainly sad ones...is leaving for Colorado at the end of the month, so ill never see her again either. Cause its these people that fuck with my life, and by never having them in my head ever again, they cant do that anymore. It brings a sigh of relief to my mind and heart. Finally, its all over.
So on to the next chapter of my life. The real world as they call it. I'm ready for it. I have a great set of friends, an amazing man, and a great family by my side. I'm ready for anything and i cant wait for things to happen, like in the future, big things can happen now, I'm so ready. Hear that world? I'm ready and waiting...so bring it!