This kind of grief is new to me. Sudden loss is hard and tragic loss is even harder. Watching you leave in a bag was hard, let alone knowing I would never see you again. Your picture is hard to see, but I know i need to keep looking. I need to remember your face. You happy face, the good times. We knew you were not meant to stay on this Earth long. We knew one day you would do it. Take your life. I realize you hurt every day. Now you are free. Your funeral is tomorrow. We saw you in a casket today. I have never seen a funeral home so packed before, know you were so loved, are loved. We all miss you.
Tuesday, December 23, 2014
Thursday, December 4, 2014
Getting Places
I am feeling very good about myself and about everything.
-I am starting a new semester in college next month with some awesome classes
-My loan stuff has seemed to go through ok
-My semester now isnt over till next week but i will have a 4.0
- I am excited about the future (and nervous and scared and everything in between but thats ok)
- I love my little family ( Deric and Khaleesi)
-I am loving Yoga and i am getting a juicer for Christmas so i can start being super healthy and the other day i held the crow pose in class and i was sooo pumped ( Making progress!!)
-Khaleesi hasn't knocked over the tree with its ornaments on so yay
-Mt tea addiction is strong
-I thought about a few things and i came to a conclusion that i haven't said anything about but I think it is a good idea and from what everyone tells me it is way cheaper but still everything i want
-Pinterest is my all time favorite thing (so bad but i get a lot of awesome ideas from it and i love it, the crafty me is saying thank you!)
-I love my friends, coworkers, and family
There are a few things that are a little blah for me though
-Work is starting to feel like WORK, the kind you don't enjoy all too much but that is why my Baker life is pumping me up because there is HOPE
-I feel very groggy lately and sluggish when i need and want to do things and I don't like that...been thinking of doing a cleanse of some sort...the good healthy kind of course
-I NEED to get a gym membership! Yoga only goes so far.
-I feel distant at times with the world and the people in it, that is ok but I need to come back down to earth.
I am trying to be a better me and I am slowly, day by day, making progress. I think I will go walk down at Lake Harbor soon because i always feel refreshed after doing that and a walk in nature cures like anything for me. Even if it is cold as balls here in Michigan.
I am gonna start saving for my back piece (Mandala). I really want it. I think i will get the ohm sign someplace too. I need to start a regular meditation also, never realized how important things like that and savasana where till recent.
-I am starting a new semester in college next month with some awesome classes
-My loan stuff has seemed to go through ok
-My semester now isnt over till next week but i will have a 4.0
- I am excited about the future (and nervous and scared and everything in between but thats ok)
- I love my little family ( Deric and Khaleesi)
-I am loving Yoga and i am getting a juicer for Christmas so i can start being super healthy and the other day i held the crow pose in class and i was sooo pumped ( Making progress!!)
-Khaleesi hasn't knocked over the tree with its ornaments on so yay
-Mt tea addiction is strong
-I thought about a few things and i came to a conclusion that i haven't said anything about but I think it is a good idea and from what everyone tells me it is way cheaper but still everything i want
-Pinterest is my all time favorite thing (so bad but i get a lot of awesome ideas from it and i love it, the crafty me is saying thank you!)
-I love my friends, coworkers, and family
There are a few things that are a little blah for me though
-Work is starting to feel like WORK, the kind you don't enjoy all too much but that is why my Baker life is pumping me up because there is HOPE
-I feel very groggy lately and sluggish when i need and want to do things and I don't like that...been thinking of doing a cleanse of some sort...the good healthy kind of course
-I NEED to get a gym membership! Yoga only goes so far.
-I feel distant at times with the world and the people in it, that is ok but I need to come back down to earth.
I am trying to be a better me and I am slowly, day by day, making progress. I think I will go walk down at Lake Harbor soon because i always feel refreshed after doing that and a walk in nature cures like anything for me. Even if it is cold as balls here in Michigan.
I am gonna start saving for my back piece (Mandala). I really want it. I think i will get the ohm sign someplace too. I need to start a regular meditation also, never realized how important things like that and savasana where till recent.
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