I Am A Jerk

Geez, I feel like a total ass hole. Deric's car isnt working...and all I can think about is how im frustrated because that means we cant go to the beach even though I REALLY want to go. This probably makes me one of the worst girlfriends out there. Im a jerk and i feel bad baout my last post because that really doesnt matter now does it? Deric needs a car more then i need the beach. But all i can think about is the beach, what a selfish ass i am. God, if Deric is frustrated with me at all or angry at me for it i dont blame him...Id be angry at myself. Why do i have to be such a screw up?